Sunday, May 16, 2004

Today was just a bad day, not a set back, a bad day. It's ok to not be 100% over it, it takes time. You're doing good I tell myself everyday, and I am, it's OK to feel like this. It's OK. I turned my head and there he was. I whipped my head back around, my heart racing. Calm. Calm. Calm. Slow down, don't forget to breath. What are the odds? Breath, stop shaking, steady, click. There you can do it. Easy, breath, calm, slow, think. It's OK. Posters. Oh shit now the guy is all pissed. Stop talking so loud. I'M RIGHT HERE. Are they laughing at me? Don't look behind you. Breath, look and act normal. It's OK. It's OK. Why did I do this? This door? No. I wanted to use the other one. Don't let her think that. Act cool, breath, stop shaking, focus. It's OK. It's OK to feel this and have a bad day with it. Think about Him, haha, that was awesome. He didn't know it. There is not enough time damnit. Summer. Freedom, on so many levels and new possibilities. It's OK. It's OK to feel this and have a bad day. Somehow I just know we'll meet again and something will happen. It's OK to feel that.

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