Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Currently: Listening to Ryan Adam's album Love is Hell

This album is really really good, if you have Winamp you can go to their site and download the whole thing. I suggest you do. You wont be disappointed. Same for The Cure's new album.

Internet was down for a few days which is why I didn't get to writing in here sooner. It's crazy how for those days I was inching to go online and then when it was working again I spent about 5 minutes on it and was done.

My trip to the emergency room wasn't bad, I wasn't dying or anything. I threw up 3 times and wasn't doing good at all so my mom rushed home and we went in. They don't really know what's wrong with me they thought I might be anemic (lack of iron) but after some tests I'm not. I throw up without even having dairy and yada yada yada I doubt you want to know the gritty details. They gave me an IV which is the worst thing in the world. I have a huge fear of needles and I hate when they tell you you're getting one and you have to wait forever. This made me really nervous and I felt like throwing up again. They took blood (WHICH IS WORST THEN AN IV) I cried really hard and it hurt soooooooooo fucking bad. When they put the IV in they made it so the fluid would go really fast so I could feel it going in my veins and I need to stop typing/ thinking about it b/c I feel like puking. I also think of the worst, what if it gets ripped out of my hand thinking that causes me to have a borderline panic attack practically. I watched While You Were Out with my mom and got to have some Sera Mist (keep in mind I puked 3 times and hadn't drank anything in over 5 hours I was fucking thirsty). They gave me soup and took out my IV and I was free to go. I spent over 4 hours in the ER and it was a long ass 4 hours. Ha ha when you go in they check your blood pressure and ask you questions, so the lady asked me if I do drugs and I said “I smoke pot everyonceinawhile I’m not going to lie” so later she asked my mom if it was a problem. My mom told me not to tell them that stuff ha ha. Tomorrow I have to go to the doctor to do a follow up, I really freaking hope that they figure out what the hell is wrong with me. They think is could be depression... ha. I have a really nasty bruise from the damn IV too.

Does anyone remember the little cans of pop with Mario brothers characters on them? The strawberry ones had the princess on them... and that’s all that I can remember but they should really bring those back. Man, the days of being little...

I was watching TV and a commercial for staples came on and there was a little girl in the school supplies moping. Alice Cooper (hell yeah) asks her what’s wrong and she says “You said schools out forever” and he replies “No, it’s schools out for summer”. Ha ha ha ha I laughed really hard b/c it’s Alice Cooper and school supplies, man if he was the person that I went shopping for school supplies with maybe it wouldn’t have been so bad. I love it.

Yesterday while cleaning I listened to Bon Jovi Crossroads, good album. I grew up with Bon Jovi I can’t help but love them in all their cheesy rockin-ness.

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