Saturday, February 12, 2005

things with my mom and i have been rocky lately. last night i broke down and just wrote her a letter b/c i've always felt more comfortable writing things than confronting people. she hasn't said anything about it but when she called me today she didn't seem mad anymore. we'll see.

i think we may just be too much alike, and i think we're getting sick of each other. moving in august will be a good thing i believe.

yesterday in the mail i received my jacket that i ordered and i'm in love with it, my mom bought me a scarf to go with it that i love just as much. my paul frank slippers, marilyn manson book and japanese toy came as well. last night i read the whole manson book in 10 hours, it was an interesting read. Disgusting, interesting and mixed feelings. my image of trent reznor has been smashed and i'm really disappointed. the nin video that my mom ordered was disappointing as well. why do things get ruined?

tonight i'm going to drumfest or whatever it's called at school and then going to party perhaps. i hope b/c i need to get out and have some fun.

my dear friend lucas is going through some things and i really wish that i could be there for him in person. i miss you love.

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