Monday, July 04, 2005

i had a nice mini vacation up at cass lake mn, laura's dad's place. it's funny in the winter it's noonefuckingliveshere alaska but in the summer it's rich people camping city. i didn't know this but like 6 years ago i went camping there with my mom and her ex-friends. they were rich. ha. i've never seen so many cadillac escalades (hummers too) in my life. i want one but my political standing wouldn't allow it. we left on saturday at 9am and arrived sometime around 12 or 1pm and we all decided to go tubing down the river. hahaha... that was a blast b/c i don't do that kinda stuff and it's just fucking fun. laura, marie and i went and bought a floatie that you lay on and not a tube. well that wasn't so smart but it made it more fun. the water was really shallow and hitting rapids was a ton of fun. how many times can i say fun? i scrapped my thigh on a rock and got a bruise b/c of it but whatever it was a blast. i fell off so many times and as shallow as the water is you CAN NOT get up b/c the water is going to so fast. her dad (who weights, god, like, 400 pounds but he's the strongest fucking person i've ever seen. he took a wooden bat and broke it in half over his knee.) had to come and help me up and keep me from falling back in the water. when we reached the point where the other car was there was no way that anthony, laura, marie and i would be able to go to shore without the water carring us away so her dad pulled all of us hanging on to eachother's floats upstream and to shore. the rest of the weekend was pretty mellow, laura, marie and i went to the beach and relaxed. i had a nice time.


elan is in mexico right now... that lucky s.o.b. i can't wait until he comes home i miss him lots and lots.


i told my mom i'm not going to ridgewater, who the fuck was i fooling, i didn't want to go there. i just thought it would be a good idea to go to collage right away and then i wouldn't be taken off my mom's health insurence. however, how would i save up to go to seattle if i was in college and making car payments? i don't want to go to that shit school anyway, actually i bet it's not that shitty but i just think it's shitty. this means still living at home and when i told my mom that i wanted to move out still and get a place in willmar (the rent is fucking cheap around there) she was all like "no don't do that and blah blah blah." she gets really stupid about shit like that so i just said ok to shut her up. god almighty the thought of still living here is worst then being at a college i don't want to go too. there is no way in hell i can live here with her any longer. i just hope that we fight so much she sees my fucking point.


i'm planning on getting three jobs and put away a lot of money to go to seattle (really it's the surrounding area) or whever i may end up (a lot of it also depends on elan) and be happy. i just want to go to evergreen, that's all i want to do but if i don't get in at least i can take my generals in seattle and not have to wait. my mom is planning on going to seattle with me and i fucking hate it. can she not wait a goddamn year? can i not do anything or like anything without her taking it over and smashing it to shit? goddamn, i really hope she doesn't have the money when i have it so i can go there by my fucking self and do something on my own for once. wow that turned into a unexpected bitch fest.


this made me lol:
AP magazine: describe trent reznor 2005, in five words or less.
trent: why do you pull these fucking zingers out on me? (pauses.) let's see... still alive and kicking.


hehehe he is so awesome. i'm totally digging soundgarden right now.

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