Tuesday, May 02, 2006

oh boy...

ok so my mom. here's the lowdown.

so i was talking to christina on the phone, when my mom says "hey look at this picture of jeordie."
"have it. i have over 500 pictures of him (i know it's unhealthy but they're there why not?)"
i walk away... and i think my mom says "fuck you" to me. so i asked her "did you just say fuck you to me?"
"no i said..." i forgot what she said.
"oh ok... b/c it's not like you haven't before."
"yeah you just love to emb

DAVE NAVORRO IS PLAYING NOOKIE BY LIMP BIZKIT. WHAT THE FUCK. SERIOUSLY! OH GOD! *falshbacks like whoa*

anyway,
embarrass me in front of your friends" and she storms out.
i just went back to my room. well that's not the end of it b/c she stops talking to me. mark came back with my car and maria comes over so we take it to SA to get air in the tires. it wont start and we're stuck there. i call my mom at least 15 times no answer. so finally someone gives us a ride back to my house. i tell me mom and she just keeps walking away.

NICE!

i could have been fucking hurt. anyway, so then a couple days later she tells me after maria leaves:
"i'll only say this once, i'm tired of your i'm perfect attitude. i'm tired of you embarrassing me in front of your frieds and your temper tantrums."

TEMPER TANTRUMS! yeah totally, you know me, i throw em all the time.

and she tells me that i'm not going to NIN b/c she sold my ticket and if i want it back i have to pay her. niiiiicceee. temper tantrum huh? ok.

well she's talking to me now kinda. and she keeps me posted about the tickets.
"the people who wanted them backed out so i have to ask a few others."

GREAT! oh god do i hope my ticket to see nin gets sold soon, you stupid fucktard, b/c we have to work that shit out soon so we aren't stuck with them!

that was the last good thing i was going to do before basic training. that was my chance to see jeordie one more time. fuck you.

i told mrs. woods about all this and she just said that i need to get out of here b/c it's the only way to save my relationship with my mom. i agree but to be honest i don't really want to see or talk to my mom for a long long time when i am gone. there is too much shit she's done that's made me angry and i'm not totally over it yet.

oh oh i forgot here's the kicker: she said she's going to be happy when i leave.

really? ok well then maybe i should leave and not say goodbye. then you wont have to act all sad and shit. i know she doesn't mean it but jesus fucking christ, that kinda shit still hurts.

other then that, my car isn't totally running good it stalls and goes dead when i make turns sometimes and when i slow down. hopefully by the end of the week it will be running and i can start looking for a job; hopefully two.

party monster is my new favorite movie and i'm head-over-heels in like with:

this sexy motherfucker

yeah i haven't really grown out of the 13 yr old fangirl phase yet. but those eyes man. i have a thing with guys and their last names being colors i guess.

i typed that extreamly fast and i really don't feel like reading over it and making it all nice so whatev.

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